You certainly are a sly one. We spend our whole lives searching for you, then one day out of the blue you surprise us. I thought I found you in the past, but my heart apparently had more maturing to do. You are very good at pushing our hearts to their limit – like how our muscles have to be pushed to their limit and break down in order to be built up. Several times I wanted to give up. I didn’t want to go the distance. I didn’t think a relationship was worth the pain of my heart breaking down again, and I doubted your ability to build my heart into something greater.
I have for a long time wondered what you are. What does it mean to be in love? And how do you know whether or not you are in love? Well…I still don’t know the answer. However, now I’ve decided to stop asking. I believe you are so ellusive that maybe we just aren’t really supposed to know what you are. We can only feel you working in our lives. I’m ok with that now. I’ve learned that there is always a little uncertainty in love, but loving each other inspite of that uncertainty – risking everything because you love that person so much – that is true love.
So, Love, inspite of all the pain and loneliness over the years, I have matured and can understand why I needed to shed all those tears. After all the nights of doubting you as well as doubting myself, I am grateful that you have surprised me with someone all my own to love.
Thank you for helping me to believe in happiness again.